The changes or shifts you are undergoing are not necessarily easy. Not because the changes are wrong but because they are outside your comfort zone.
Throughout your life, you had expectations of what you should achieve or aspire to achieve and when. But this change, this shift, does not follow a 3D pattern or any pattern you have yet conceived of. A change that likely feels right sometimes and very wrong at other times. The phrase, “What am I doing?” probably pops into your thoughts daily.
Everything is moving so rapidly with little forethought or preparation. You feel as if you have mental whiplash. It is this, no this, no this – all within days or hours. And you are exhausted. It feels like it is too much – and often, like a mistake.
Even though you are following your inner voice, it does not feel as correct as many of your 3D moments. Your possible rightness is followed by many qualifiers of “I hope.” And very few certainties.
Somehow, those uncertainties are discarded as you push forward, much like when you initiated your inner work months or years ago. You know you have to do it, but getting there, wherever there is, does not always feel comfortable or right.
Because you are on your unique path, no one can assure you that what you are doing is right – including you at this moment. Your new direction is so outside your 3D comfort zone that you cannot understand why you are driven to do or be this.
At the same time, as you move into this new space, pieces that seem overwhelming fall into place with limited effort. As if it was meant to be – or you are extremely lucky.
This phase is so counterintuitive you do not have the energy to fight your inner directives as you might have had a few months ago. Logically, your new direction probably feels wrong, but within yourself, there is a sense of rightness you cannot understand.
Will you be pleased with this action or thought? Will the sun and stars shine brightly because you have moved in the correct direction? The answer is a resounding yes – perhaps not on day one, but as you grow into who you are becoming.
Somewhat like building a new home. Once the framework is in place, the house looks smaller and less inviting than it did in the preliminary drawings. But as your new home is flushed out with walls, floors, and decor, you love what you have built.
You are in the framework stage, so your new direction seems less than you imagined. “I gave up all this for this?” will be a common refrain until your new you skeleton is flushed out.
There are pieces of your current life that will remain within your heart – your feelings of joy at that time in your life. But you have moved beyond that time. Reading your first paragraph book gave you great joy, even though finding that same happiness with the same book as an adult is impossible.
You are through with 3D in all aspects of your being. There is nothing more you can experience or deeply feel other than comfort, as is true with an old shoe. You are now ready to attend the ball and need different shoes.
New is in, and your former life is no more. Allow yourself to know that throughout this uncomfortable phase as you shift into your new skeleton.
The old world is gone for you and anyone who wishes to move beyond 3D.
Your world will feel foreign until you experience joy as your new skeleton becomes the framework of your new life. So be it. Amen.
**Channel: Brenda Hoffman