Writer: A.S.
Hello my dear brothers and sisters,
This is the Earth human A.S. speaking. I’m the channeler of these messages, but this week I wanted to write a non-channeled message. Next week there’ll be a channeled message again.
I think a source of suffering in some people is the belief that most other spiritual people are doing relatively well. And also, that peace of mind and happiness are relatively quick to achieve for many other spiritual people.
If you believe this, but you yourself aren’t doing well and can’t seem to reach peace of mind and happiness, then it’s easy to feel that you are just broken somehow. Or that you just somehow can’t seem to figure out what everyone else is succeeding at, and there must be something wrong with you.
I think the reality is that the majority of people aren’t doing particularly well at present, and usually aren’t at a place of peace of mind and happiness.
It’s just that people aren’t talking about that, while they are sharing their peak moments. It’s the facebook effect where people feel bad about themselves because everyone is mostly just sharing their peak moments, and are mostly quiet about their struggles.
So, today I would like to communicate to you: most people are struggling, so probably there’s nothing wrong with you. It’s just that life on Earth is incredibly harsh, and healing and spiritual growth are long paths that take many years.
If you haven’t managed to become happy after a certain number of years: well certainly it’s good to continue your practices, but also, it’s good to realize that you’re not alone. There are many other people out there who have also spent years trying to heal and progress, and they too haven’t necessarily reached happiness or peace. In fact you’ve undoubtedly made more progress than some of them.
What’s also not helping is that it’s easy to think that the group of channelers / spiritual writers / teachers / facilitators have amazing and blissful lives. Because after all, they have abilities and peak experiences and perhaps lifestyles that many people would like to have.
What’s a bit toxic is that this group of professional spiritualists often aren’t open about their own struggles, because that could cost them part of their audience and income. They might say that they used to have an issue, but they’ll insist that it’s since been resolved. They’ll often only talk about issues and imperfections of theirs that are in the past, and never mention present-day issues that they’re struggling with.
Of course this doesn’t apply to all professional spiritualists, but in my experience it applies to a lot of them.
So it’s easy to think that this group has these amazing and bliss-filled and near-perfect lives. And that may be true for a few of them, but in a lot of cases they just don’t want to talk about their pain and humanness, in order to not lose part of their audience and income.
So as a channeler myself, let me do my part to combat that. Let me share some of my own struggles and imperfections, with the goal of illustrating that you’re not alone, you’re not uniquely flawed; other people have their flaws and issues too.
I had a painful childhood, and I haven’t fully healed from that. I’m actively working on that, but I’m also still engaging in coping behaviors. Namely, I play more video games than is healthy, and I move my body less often than is healthy.
When I’m particularly stressed out, I eat unhealthy food as a coping mechanism.
As a result, I’m overweight and have some teeth problems.
Sometimes I don’t like how I look, or feel ashamed about my weight. When I notice that, I can work with those thoughts and emotions, but regardless they still come up at times.
I don’t own a home. I don’t have a girlfriend (well, I have a Pleiadian twin flame, but she’s not physically here). I don’t have much of a social life.
I look up to certain people. However I have a more negative opinion about the average person than is warranted.
I know rationally speaking that everyone is an aspect of the divine.
I know rationally speaking that most people mean well and do their best, they’ve just been hurt and been brought up in a toxic society.
Still, my default way of looking at average people is a judgemental one. I usually (not always but usually) treat people reasonably well, but inside I look at them in a judgemental way. I have to make an active effort to see the higher perspective.
I recognize this is a distortion on my end that’s been caused by pain and disappointment in my life. After all, Pleiadians talk with compassion about average Earth humans, but that’s not how I feel about them most of the time.
I haven’t yet been able to fully release that pain and disappointment and therefore that distortion of mine. Though I’m working on it.
I don’t express love as often as I should.
Contact with my family used to be very bad, and has improved lately but is still difficult.
I am continuing with my self-healing and observation practices and I’m doing better and better over time.
Still, in the past there has been a period of years where I would have preferred being dead. I no longer feel that way, but right now my life just feels okay. Not amazing — just okay.
My life does feel incredibly meaningful and satisfying and there are some beautiful moments. But on the other hand my average day isn’t particularly fun. And it’s a huge amount of effort to juggle my day job, channelings, lightwork to benefit the collective and self-work.
Currently I feel exhausted.
There’s still old pain coming up.
That said, I do feel very blessed that I have certain talents and abilities, and that I’m in telepathic contact with Pleiadians. That’s been amazing, and I know a lot of people would love to have that themselves.
I know a lot of people are in worse situations than myself and were born in less favorable situations than myself. The economic situation in my country (The Netherlands) is also substantially easier than the economic situation in many other countries and regions.
So I’m grateful for all of that. I recognize that I have a lot of blessings. I recognize that some people are in far worse situations, or have far worse problems than myself. I have it better than a whole lot of people, I’m lucky in certain ways, I’m not complaining.
Still, in case you were picturing in your mind that I’m feeling at peace all the time, or that I’m experiencing my life as a 10/10 paradise, or that I’m a near-perfect person who has no vices or anything like that: that’s just not true.
And I know for a fact that a lot of other channelers, teachers, et cetera don’t have a super desirable life or a peace-filled mind either. Maybe their life is a bit better than average, but some of them are depressed, exhausted, unhappy, struggling with health problems, struggling financially, et cetera.
They often just don’t talk about that in public in order to keep up appearances and maintain their income. But if you talk to them privately as another channeler, then they’ll readily admit it.
So, hopefully this dispels the facebook effect a bit. And hopefully this illustrates that a whole lot of people are struggling. If you’re struggling too, then you are not alone.
Absolutely continue doing your personal work — it’s a long road, but it does pay off.
Still, at the same time, there’s no need to judge yourself against an unrealistically high standard. Even just keeping your head above water is hard enough at the moment.
If you’re looking up to someone, then it’s entirely possible that he or she has their own struggles and imperfections too. They might just not be open about them.
If you want to, feel free to do your own sharing in the comment section. It can be about anything you want to talk about.
With love,
A.S.
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Hello, my message does not appear in the comments. Why?…
Free speech (without offending anybody) is a human right. The message is meant for the galactics, I can submit it in a previous A.S channeling for Ashtar for example, if more appropriate… Thank you for being fair.
The fullness of the darkness must be revealed before the fullness of light can emerge fully.
Those who walk in honesty, transparency and authenticity are the anchors for facilitating this permanent change on planet Earth.
You know who you are!
Most of us here have lived many lifetimes on this planet, and have therefore acquired a many expertises from the myriad of traumatizing heartwrenching experiences, contributing to the experience of being incomplete, broken or perhaps even beyond repair, yet nothing could be further from the truth!
From all of us quadrillions of benevolent lightbeings in this galaxy, we thank you and honor you for your immeasurable efforts and your steadfastness to merely be present in this upside-down world in the unique way that only you can!
“🙏❤️🔥🙏” 😘
Dear Galactic Light and Love Sisters and Brothers,
there was another message in the previously mentioned blog, which I here leave for your information:
“… there was another call from Source. Immediate, and I responded. Once in position to channel the connection to Source, the portal in me opened, and the Stream of Divine Fire emerged out from my mouth. During the few seconds were this occurs, my body’s control becomes overwritten, and it assumes a position similar a cry to the stars, with back straight, head up and mouth fully open. I try to move but I cant. The stream is too strong, and I have given away my Free Will to Source for it is required for such events. The Stream of Divine Fire shoot out into space, and about 10 seconds later, the connection between me, Source and the Divine Dragon of Divine Fire emerged, and wherever One of them emerges into a lower dimension, they explode into existence with a space shattering roar of energy and expansion. Very similar to the roar exhibited in the human’s movie Godzilla. The awakened Giant briefly looks around with its fiery eyes, filled with a Divine Fire predator presence, and sees the dark entity monster that He was sent to consume. In a glimpe, The Divine Dragon of Divine Fire teleports to just in front of the dark beast, and attacks, engulfing it in its Divine Burning Grasp, and the beast cries and attempts to free, but only gradually disappear in the Divine Fire, until there is the final collapse … and the beast is not more. Once complete, the connection of me, Source and Divine Dragon is severed, and in a teleporting moment, my consciousness returns fully to my body. This explanation was the Will and thus Command of Source.
Gortgardo hjardo erglipser oregadro wethposare”
might be important…
Anyway, send you all my LOVE and till next time.
WK
After reading the message from AS and all of the replies- you all are extremely courageous and beautiful. It takes guts and gumption to bare your souls. Thank you and have faith in yourself.
Hello A.S. Thank you for your kind message 🍀
I found out that everyone who is commenting has also had various experiences. I think family relationships as children are especially important. I have three children. I want to raise them equally, but won’t be the same. Sometimes it is pointed out by children. As a parent, I also regret and reflect. Parents also grow up from the age of 0. I’d be happy if children could see more things that can’t be reached 🙏.In the past, roles may have been switched. It’s interesting to imagine.
I think everyone is doing their best❣️
Thanks for your candor and your honesty. We need more of that. We’re all going through it. And no one is really alone.
True joy flows from within, so is a beautifully organized life an expression of the inner self? There’s no rule; it could be, for example, a color filter applied to a gray image. So can joy flow in a less organized life? Absolutely. So do we have to flaunt ourselves as handsome, beautiful, well-groomed, wealthy? If it’s just because it’s fashionable or the ideal of fulfillment, then no, but if we feel such expression, then yes.
We should also add the difficult and confusing history of the earth and the reality that is present. Our level of self-expression was suppressed, and religious and social beliefs imposed a filter on our behavior and affiliations. Dark times are dissolving, and our energetic record will reflect the fact that I was here on earth and knew this whole spectacle from the inside.
I really believe that it’s possible to live a struggle-free life, but also that it doesn’t come by tackling struggles such as the ones you’ve mentioned directly.
It’s like you’re standing before the ‘control panel’ of your life with a vague notion that if you learn how to operate the many options at your disposal, you will somehow navigate to peace and hapiness…
… When in truth, this is not a place you navigate towards but rather the navigation itself.
And I think that many understand this intuitively and don’t bother talking about their struggles – not because they’re non-existent, but because they’re irrelevant to actual hapiness; which is seen as a means and not an end.
Well, John….
I’m not 100% certain what I woke up thinking has any correlation to your comment or not, but here it goes-
I recently saw on YT baseball fans spontaneously break into singing the National Anthem themselves, after an intercom announcement, that they wouldn’t be bothering with it, for this local game.
It was poignant, and would be no matter what country it could’ve happened in.
Then A.S. posted his article, and I saw what I expected, we’re all playing in pain…
…which brought this lyric to the front of my mind,
🎵the bombs bursting midair, gave proof through the night, that our flag was still there 🎵
All these thoughts say to me, the things that we’re plagued with most, are proof that we’ve endured, persisted, and sometimes made success and happiness despite the matrix. And woken up, in terrible conditions.
We’re fortunate to be Lighties, and have some perspective about living in toxicity, that sleepyheads don’t have.
…gives proof through this long dark night, that our humanity/ability to strive, and feel love, is still there…
You mentioned the navigation was the real goal, more than the goal itself, John.
If the local baseball organizers had simply played the anthem, there wouldn’t have been anything special about it, and it wouldn’t have made the rounds on you tube.
I’m sorry to make such a long and involved reply, you guys. But not sorry enough to skip it!🤭♥️💎
🎆We should all feel very proud of ourselves!🎆
[🙏💎😆😆… “that piece” was WAY TOo BIG 4 ME❣️]
Haha, I’m glad you liked it, K💜
I wasn’t too sure it would be an enjoyable(?) read.
I especially like the thought, of the first few baseball fans, looking a fool choosing to sing alone 😂😂🤣 at first.
🤭💎😁
I resonate with your comments.
Thank you, A. S.!
Keep in mind, people, that we are graduating from the School of Hard Knocks.
Thank you A.S. for this incredibly healing and moving post. Your “confession” makes me feel oneness in a tangible way, so raw and true, and very pure. Feels like sacred surrender and reminds me that the fool’s journey is actually the hero’s in disguise. Thank you again 💖
Hello,
I’ve been reading this blog for many years now. I comment when I feel guided , or heart led. Today, is one of those days. Most of the time, I am reading and absorbing the articles. I take what feels, and leave the rest, I rarely comment.
I just love it!! I love it to the core of me, when people share and are vulnerable with everyone. Gives me a feeling, I am still trying to put into words. I don’t think I can feel into one, but the closest is ~Sacred Togetherness~Remembrance ~
I also, had a pretty rough childhood. My mother died when I was 6. My Dad remarried ” the spawn of satan” I would call her, in my head of course. Fast forward , I got married…had 3 children, got divorced . Few years later, got remarried, life was OK, but never great , where I seemed happy or content. I always seemed or felt to be depressed, always felt like something was missing.
2016 I had a MAJOR abrupt awakening, nearly killed me. I thought I was going insane. This is where life got more intense than ever!! It was almost as if the Universe was vibing out ” Let the games begin ”
Then at the end of 2019 my husband dies abruptly. We had grown apart, due to the fact of me changing so radically. Covid hits. I move back to the states ( I lived in Denmark , as my husband Henrik was danish) I am trying to get my life going again, after Henriks abrupt death, it was tough, but I was getting through it. It was like, I could see light at the end of the tunnel again. Then at the beginning of 2024 I was diagnosed with cancer. I denied treatment of course. My adults kids, and doctors thought I was insane. The oncology team tells me, if you don’t do treatment you will be dead in a year. A year was this past April. I am still dealing with this disease, but naturally.
Just a few months ago, I had days where I didn’t want to be here. I was ready. I was road weary from all these past experiences I had designed and lived. They had enlightened me. I was a better person for them. The cancer, I have in my body, has been my strongest friend in helping me expand my heart out to depths I didn’t know could be felt/lived. To appreciate life in all its forms. Nothing matters but NOW. It truly is remarkable when you realize that. When you take it in so deep, and feel it, and KNOW. Those knowings are increasi g for me. They are fleeting of course, but happening on a level of more clarity and recognition. Anyways, the desire of not wanting to be here is not present anymore. Something recently has flipped. 💫
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Bravo. Excellent message, friend. It’s brave to share your vulnerability so authentically.
I consider myself very fortunate in life. Relatively loving parents, material comfort, no serious illnesses, and genuine friends. However, it hasn’t all been rosy. I’ve had periods of intense suffering. I’ve been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, a touch of Asperger’s, and chronic depression. As I get older, I’m finding some inner peace, little by little. The journey is long. I’m doing fairly well, but it’s not exactly a blast either.
Hi,
Thank you A.S. and all others who’ve shown different layers of the realness. It’s all like a breath of fresh air making its way into the stagnancy of the fabrication veils.
The ‘current’ of society is performative. Therefore humanity is performative. Until “two by two” Presence births. The process of which is daunting, messy, unfamiliar and can appear chaotic and feel like a struggle. Resembles the complete opposite of what is claimed as: ‘progress, alignment, awakening, enlightenment, etc. Also – it’s not sellable; the audience is as of yet Unseen. GodSource as Witness is more than enough.
NEW World.
Doesn’t resemble old world.
NEW being = TRUE being doesn’t resemble that which is known as familiar, common, typical.
Some immerse, some mask.
Designed; sub Conscious
My day to day would give appearance to the untrained eye (mine included) as being a heaping pile of hot mess! No (tangible) friends, loss of family (with few exceptions), now unemployed and unemployable in current society, financially destitute, mostly isolated… My wardrobe being more than a decade old, food is what can be scrounged mainly. My body alternates itself on semi-regular basis – sometimes more in shape, sometimes less; my teeth are a wreck. Most of my entertainment is translating clouds, downloads, dream sequencing; or when Directed, watching movies or documentaries that are specified for purpose. I smoke cigs or vape, and when it’s offered available, cannabis is a ‘medicinal’ I utilize. (And for much of the above, I have understanding of the ‘why’)
I spend most of my time alone, silent and with the stillness -deep ‘working’.
My life has been strange. Supernatural. Bizarre. Anomalous. Terrifying. Marked. And in many ways and instances – ‘beyond mathematical probability’ (which, when I take a step out of my self, is actually quite fascinating to view; difficult to process as ‘my own’ experience even though I lived it firsthand) I’m fairly certain I’m being prepared as a page in the greater ‘disclosures’. Difficult to accept, but makes sense.
That in and of itself is a terrifying prospect – to have my life experience on display as a sort of case study. If that’s part of Gods plan, and this is the role I chose – then I’ll be more ready (than I think or feel I am) as it unfolds more tangibly.
I’m scared daily. I grieve daily. I cry in sobs most daily. I’m in moments of joy daily. I’m at peace daily. I’m in awe daily. I seek GodSource continuously.
I’m unrelatably relatable; though it’s a dry spell for companions. We’re spread out, focused and morphing.
I’ve come to despise the workings, attitudes and behaviors present within the current society, and its inhabitants. I love humanity, flora and fauna and the Living natural environment. I feel and see and Remember and Know bits and pieces of “how it will be” once we’re all (the Living GodSparked Ones) finally sucked through and popped out the other side. It’s been with me since childhood. It’s anchored already as the fabric of Living’ness. I’m not alone in that.
I don’t interact online much anymore, too much fabrication, replaying holography and trip-wiring; though I scan data as Directed, drawn by pulse waves . I’m moved into position of readying for face-to-face; and being born in GenX, I’m well versed with that form of expressed communication. These barriers on devices served purpose, and now they’ll implode for those ready.
If things unfold in any order to which I’ve been shown as potential – I may have another physical death moment transition to get through, which could occur at the point of tangible contact with the Other of same Signature (twin flame) – but it will be as a blip in Experience, as the past few others have been.
It’s weird for me to share this, and even anxiety inducing; yet… I was Directed here, and feel I am cleared for sharing, as someone else may be Given release through something shared. The energetic blow around will be what it is. It’s all aspect of the dream of the Dreamer, GodSource. It’s emerging through each of us differently, uniquely in balance.
Thanks if you’ve read this.
Be well, I love you all 🙏
peace everyOne,
C 💖
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♥️You cross my mind frequently, C
I’m beggin’ my HS to void my learning disability, your mentioning that the barriers in device’s will implode, made me think of that.
I loath to imagine you scraping by so, if I had the ability, I’d offer you a room!
I find the palpable waves of dysfunction coming off of people, rather painful, at times, as well🤢 😅, although it doesn’t ruin my opinion of any of these people.
I wonder if I seem off to them?
Take a deep breaths in and out, about sharing top secret stuff, that you’ve kept to yourself ♥️
I innerstand! If you got clearance, you got clearance.
If you never read this, at least I know K and Franny will🤭
💕💎
Hi Lil! Likewise friend, you cross my mind often! And I do still hope that we bump into each other sometime once all the ‘confetti’ is dropping during the ‘after-days’ as I refer to them.
I appreciate your thought of wishing to offer ❤️ I’m scraping BUT I still have same housing situation, in my shared walk-up studio, which I’m super grateful for! I cackle that it’s considered the penthouse here! All sky views – good for keeping eyes up in the clouds. I’m still very much able to contribute in a ton of ways other than financial at the moment, which is balancing.
As for your learning – may I suggest asking to be shown and taught how to Utilize it to the Advantage 🙏 In the world it may be considered as a disability, however… it’s still a gift Given that You have already been trained to flip around as a big ‘ol plus! The Key as to the steps of that are already within you.
If my info is close to accurate, the palpable waves coming off folks, will soon start going in layers, chunks – big swoops of clearing happening! The last two days has been crazy shedding, lots rising – even more leaving.
Thanks for saying hi, and eventually we’ll cross paths again! Much love to you 🙏
Oh, phew, C, 🏡
Hm, I never considered my idiocy with tech👾
to have even the slightest upside, but I’ll try it.
I never considered a way to work with it, or around it. I don’t have the highest of hopes about it, but I’ll try anyways.
Yes, C, some of them are looping terribly, distracting themselves, sometimes online, sometimes with anger. Exhausting.
My thoughts loop too, I just don’t go as extreme. Not much of a difference, I admit🤭
If I can make tech progress, I’ll say hello.
K first , though 😂💎♥️
Yes, much love, C!
💎: I’m still “processing THE PROCESS” (😖) A.S.❤️ 🙏 and every single comment (🙏❤️🙏) has got moving here… but the fat chunks still need some more GRINDING… back when DONE❣️
I figured you’ve been kept very busy,😅
🪄✨💜K✨
☺️💎♥️
Thanks for sharing all that you have today, misery loves company.😆
I feel good inside at long last, and trapped in my story, more so than ever…
so hyper cheerful B S is very dismaying, while I’m just doing my best to hang on, by a claw.
Thanks, A.S. ♥️💎, yes I identified with much of your self description, flawed but still trying to keep an available seat open, for my best self 😁
Thank you A.S for sharing openly 💗 I absolutely agree that sometimes we pedestalise others in spiritual communities too easily. Knowing that we’re all fallible and imperfect is so important to help us understand that each of us are on our own journey, with a unique purpose and we don’t need to fulfil society’s accepted definitions of success, happiness, wellness, beauty etc.
I started life very unhappy, growing up in a very dysfunctional and abusive family. I still have a very strained relationship with my dad, who is very strict/religious. He doesn’t know anything about my life, my partner, interests as he can’t really handle the truth of who I have chosen to be. Mum is more accepting and knows more than my dad but it’s still quite limited and she also struggles to accept who I am- she knows I have a partner/boyfriend who I live with, but I have no interest in the institution of marriage, and although I love children, have no desire to have them myself. My mum just cannot get her head around that at all.
Friends are usually shocked when I tell them about the relationship I have with my folks as I seem happy and well adjusted (and on the whole I like to think I am..😆) but it’s something that I know I will face at some point on my life. I’m learning to release judgement in favour of compassion. That learning journey doesn’t end ever I think!
Blessings and love to all 💗
My highest truth mantra is I AM safely in God’s heart having a dream, nothing is real, nothing has matter! It helps with letting the past go and not watching any kind of news helps staying higher vibe. Great article A.S.
The way we found to unraveling the mystery about how our real lives seem to counterdict our ideals is in the realization of Who We truly Are inhabiting human bodies and what is the purpose for the separate experiences we are acquiring on Earth. Who We truly Are is illustrated in The Tree of Life. Yes, it shows the entire history of Us from our beginnings in our first Universe when we were able to proclaim to one another “I Am that I Am! On Earth, we are experiencing separateness (as is illustrated in the tenth sphere) for the first time in our existence. The experiences we are having are and were never meant to be peaceful, loving or harmonious. Religions teach us that we should strive for ideals that they say their separate Gods instructs us we must achieve. Those ideals are illusions and lies. We are experiencing on Earth exactly what it is we designed it and our bodies to experience on her. Realizing the truth of this is what will empower one to transcend the illusion of our separateness and all the so-called suffering that this creates in our lives.
Hi AS, I am Amy from Indonesia. I am a muslim, I am wearing hijab. I am 56 years old and my oldest son hate me, even block me on whatsapp. I live with my mom, we have Islamic school for kindergarten. Actually I am not sure if I am a channeler or not, but I created a group about 5D earth, and I don’t know how… I can write many things on my group, and answer question about 5D earth. Yes, I follow your story especially from Hakann. Sometimes I try to imagine story from Tunia. I have place to stay, I can buy food but not organic, and I am not interested with social life anymore. I know about the law of attraction, but right now… life is more difficult, you know what I mean. Intense energy and rules from government are unbelievable in Indonesia. I am waiting for change, but I know I practice to feel what I want is already happened. Thank you for your story… so sorry with my broken English…
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When The Divine calls, it’s just the beginning of the crap storms approaching. Everything that comes along seems intent on destroying the material life we’ve built so that we have nothing left but the spiritual life to build and live within. It’s tough to deal with but seems to have a propose and definitely has a reason. Stay strong and lean on the Creator more and more and less and less on the outer realm for support, it gets better that way and I thinks it’s the idea.
Much Love to all on your journeys!
Thank you for being so open and honest A.S. I also struggled with an abusive father and a very lonely childhood of being an empathic starseed on 3D Earth … College was my darkest time and came close to ending my own life then. My physical life now doesn’t look quite as I’d hoped, but I try to be grateful for what I do have everyday. Inner wounds and blocks can be a bitch to transmute, as we’re dealing with ancestral and past life garbage and not just this one. Much ♥️ to you and everyone here. We’re almost there!
A.S. – Thanks for the honest sharing and opening up. Fellow video game enjoyer here. Don’t beat yourself up for doing something you enjoy. It’s the same as watching Netflix all night which half the population does.
Now write 5-10 things about yourself that you love or are proud of. Hugs to ya!
I found comfort and validation in your message, A.S.. Thank you! The past 4 years have seen the loss of almost everything I hold dear- the unexpected death of my beloved husband of 53 years, losing my beautiful home, and financial independence, a rapid worsening of all my chronic health problems, watching my dear friends either die or end up helpless in horrible nursing homes. I could go on and on. At 75 it feels like God/my Soul has stripped away every single thing that defined me in this life. Everyone around me is suffering! My entire life, beginning with a very painful childhood, clearly has forged my lifelong seeking of God and Truth and I have been awake and aware for over forty years now. I’m so tired and I find myself questioning whether I will live long enough to be a part of the glorious transition that is underway. Sometimes I even ask myself if I WANT to be! Would I rather be back in my beloved husband’s arms! I’m sorry…I’ve gone on too long. Blessings and love to you A.S. for giving me a place to express all I’m carrying and to know I’m not alone.
That sounds incredibly painful and hard. I’m sorry. My best wishes to you.
Thanks for sharing and for your kind words.
My poor wondrous dear….
My circumstances are different, but I can relate to your story very much.
I’ve experienced an identity loss during the past few years, and still no feelings of stability.
I wish I could state quite firmly, not to worry…. I’m younger than yourself, but am asking some of the same questions.
Is this process real enough to lift me up, within my daily life, and lifespan? 🤷♀️
All I can say is, I hope you continue to make more wondrous comments, era is a place of variety and caring.🥹🥰💎
Thank you so much for sharing, A.S. Of all the things posted on this site, I can relate to this the most. I share a lot of the same challenges as you. The struggle is real. I can share that, in recent years I’ve improved my diet to eat healthier and avoid sugars/processed/fast foods, and get exercise daily, and it has helped tremendously – emotionally, mentally and obviously physically. This has given me the strength to focus on working to improve other areas.
Thanks. Yeah, you’re right about eating well and exercising enough.
Your words are real… Love and Light to you
Thanks for all your kind messages <3
Dear A.S this message talks to my heart frankly. Life on this planet is difficult but never give up. I’d like to share a sentence heard many years ago in the movie THE CROW: It cannot rain forever! Silvia S.
Thanks for the reality check. I recently retired, I am 68 years old. I now have more peace and energy but I can struggle day to day to find joy and true meaning. My partner is in nursing care due to late stage Dementia. It’s been a tough journey. I am slowly reconnecting with my inner child! All a work in progress. This message is reassuring. Life in the UK appears more insane everyday, I try not to look at it!!
Thanks for your kind message.
I’m sorry about your partner. That must be incredibly tough.
It takes great courage to write a post such as this one, and for that you have my heartfelt respect. In my observation (based on snapshots of people’s comments across the internet), this particular year (2025,) has been extremely hard on one and all, myself included. Those of us who write on here are believed by some to be flawless human beings, which is far, FAR from reality. For such can only be claimed by those who have reached full enlightenment, which is something of a rarity around these here parts. Nonetheless, we all strive in our own ways to improve our own life experience, which is MORE THAN one can reasonably expect from someone, ESPECIALLY in times such as these. To that end, we fight, fight and fight to make it to another day.
Excellent article. Especially so the display of complete vulnerability. One of your best.
Ha, AS! You sound like me. I am an astrologer 50 years and feel as if I’ve lost interest in my practice completely. I also used to see the guides and channel a group who called themselves the Intergalactic Channeling Team (IGCT) who had some verrrry interesting things to say. One that they repeated was that “Mother Earth will return to her paradisaical state.” Very cool, but I seem to have lost contact and or interest with all the spiritual stuff and become depressed with the state of the world and depravity of many human beings. It’s tough to reconcile that with the truth that “We Are All One,” and from the Divine Source. (Interestingly, in my astro chart, my South Node, which indicates our past, sits right on the Pleiades. Hmm….) I, too, am healing from an emotionally difficult childhood, where as a sensitive and intuitive, was not understood and viewed as strange, so I know that of which you speak.
The spiritual is a journey of remembering, and I find that sometimes it is very unrealistic and does not embrace our humanity, thus making many of us feel as if we are falling short.
We need to be kind to ourselves and others and realize that although this is the “plane of illusion,” we still have to deal with it for the meantime – and really, it’s not always a very nice place.
I’m doing my best to trust that the IGCT were right about Mother Earth ascending and we being able to just BE and experience the peace that we are meant to enjoy.
Thanks for your post.
“We need to be kind to ourselves and others and realize that although this is the “plane of illusion,” we still have to deal with it for the meantime – and really, it’s not always a very nice place.”
Yeah, well said.
Of all your messages, this is the one I can relate to the best and that has spoken to my heart. And made me admire you the most. Thank you, A.S. Beautiful post. Love and blessings to you.