I am Jeshua, an old friend of yours. I greet you all, and I am thankful and joyful to be here in your midst. Feel my energy, my presence. I am an equal, a kindred soul. I want to embrace you as comrades, and to not stand above you, but to touch you, heart to heart.
Feel my appreciation for you. You have been courageous, searching every day for the core of yourself, your “I” and what you are. You are looking for the anchor within yourself. You know deep down that you cannot truly live on Earth until you have found this core of yourself, and the peace that is there to quietly find your way in life.
To find and to experience this anchor in yourself is perhaps the most important step forward that you can make in life as a soul on Earth. If you can find your “I” here, amid the swirling, confusing energies on Earth, and taste the silence in your heart and hear your soul speak, then you are here from your inner strength, you live from within yourself.
The light of your soul then resides in your earthly body and you are literally enlivened by it. Instead of living from the outside inward, always reacting to external stimuli, you begin to live from the inside outward, from your truth that is to be found time and again in the silence. How to connect to that truth in yourself is what I want to talk about today.
I just spoke about external stimuli that take you away from your truth, your anchor, your resting point in yourself. Those stimuli do not only come from the world and the people outside you, they also come from parts of you that have internalized those stimuli, which are now located within you: in your head, your thoughts, your patterns of behavior.
You have compulsive ideas about yourself. For example, you believe you should behave in a certain way in order to be a “good person”, or a “nice guy.” You have ideal images you think you must live up to, but doing that puts a pressure on you.
Almost everyone does this continually as a result of urgings that do not come from your soul, nor come entirely from outside yourself. These urgings sit “under your skin” in your energy field. They are the most difficult urgings to get rid of on the inner path to tranquility and peace within yourself. It is these inner stimuli, these requirements and ideal images that you have taken upon yourself, and that you really believe apply to you, which keep you away from yourself and the voice of your soul.
I want to ask you to now create space in your energy field, which is made up of these thought patterns, habits, behaviors, and automatic reactive patterns. I ask you to not do this from your mind by thinking about it, but by initially connecting with the ground beneath your feet and with the heartbeat of Mother Earth. Consciously become aware of your feet and the force field that lives in and around your feet.
Feel that no matter what you think and do, and whatever you are concerned about, you are all the while being supported by the energy of Mother Earth. Feel how this goes on by itself, and allow yourself to be supported by it. Feel how the Earth flow connects to you, slowly enters through your feet and flows up through your lower legs and knees, your thighs, your hips, your pelvis. Feel the quiet, stable power of this energy.
This energy of the Earth is quiet and yet is very specific, for it flows exactly to those parts of you that can use extra stability and security. Can you allow yourself to be embraced by the Earth, by her strength and her wisdom? Feel how that power eases the busy thoughts in your head, the desire to steer and control life. When you are connected with the Earth flow, you let go of that desire and begin to think with your heart and not with your head.
Give it a try. Feel carried by a quiet stable Earth current that surrounds your legs and your hips, all the way up into your abdomen. Feel how you can let go of everything else and that you are being sustained by this current. See what happens to the energy in your head and how much quieter it becomes. Imagine that all this thinking, pondering, and mulling over runs off you as water off a duck.
Your head becomes less active and more quiet. You can experience, in the center of your head, a point that observes without thinking. It is simply a presence, a consciousness, that does not reason, but observes. Feel how pleasant it is to simply be there, and that you do not have to do anything: you are alert and present.
Now direct your attention from that quiet point in the center of your head to the area of your heart, of feeling. With the “eye” in your head, carefully search the area of your heart, the subtle refined energies that abide there. Have no expectations or judgments about what you see. Some of you might experience a feeling of warmth in the heart, while others might experience a sense of something closed off.
Maybe your heart is afraid to open and that is quite understandable, because in each of you live old fears and convictions that make it difficult to keep your heart open. Now, while you feel supported by Mother Earth, and a quiet place is created in your head, we are going to look at those old fears or negative thoughts that keep you from again opening your heart.
The most important thing is that you observe from within yourself, and not through external influences, or thought forms, or by judging something as a “should be,” but with a pure, open look. Feel that space in your heart for a moment, a space that is full of eternal beauty that belongs to you, to your soul. See there the light that you are and have developed through the many lives you have already led on Earth and elsewhere.
You do not have to know exactly where and how, but realize that you are a developed being through your many experiences and lives where you have discovered and explored many aspects of yourself and have brought them into consciousness.
Feel for a moment the wealth in your heart, feel the refinement and nuances with which you can think and feel. You can there see colors and images of nature, such as flowers, etc – although it does not matter whatever you see. Just know the wealth is there, even though there are parts of you that are still kept under lock and key, because you are afraid to let this wealth be seen by yourself and by the world.
It is there – I see it – and this is why I love you so much and appreciate you so deeply. I also see the pain you experience when you seal off parts of yourself: your own wealth and abundance, your own love and light. It is painful to live that way!
Although it sometimes seems safer to lock away parts of yourself, feel for a moment what this does to you. Feel the light, the joy, the enthusiasm that naturally wants to flow, and wants to be seen and connect with the world. Feel the inspiration that lives deep within you.
We are now going to open a door whereby something is released in you for which the time has come. It can now flow and manifest in you in a good and fine way in your life. Imagine for a moment that you see in the area of your heart a rusty old door that opens with much difficulty. Feel the energy of this door, which you have put there yourself in order to survive emotionally, or even physically.
There are all kinds of reasons in your past, in your childhood, or even in previous lives, why you have put this door there, and why it felt safe to do so. But it now hurts more than it helps – it is time to open this door.
Imagine for a moment that you now turn toward this door. Feel the stillness in your head, and know you are simply going to be there and observe what has been kept hidden for so long. You open the door slowly, while you still feel the power and the firmness in your feet that Earth gives to you, so you know you are being supported.
It is now time to be open to a larger part of your soul, to who you are. What wants to come out through this door? Perhaps you first see some clutter, old energies tumble out that have been bothering you and want to be seen: fears, doubts, something dark perhaps? Look at them with a balanced ease and welcome them.
Behind those fears or clutter something infinitely beautiful is hidden that so very much wants to again be included in your open heart. Ask if it wants to show itself, as it has a message for you. It is a part of your highest self, your angel-self that wants to come out and wants to be received in your life. Send light, love, and understanding toward the door and to the opening, so you can create a bridge whereby what is hidden can come out, and then dare to see it.
Dare to see how grand and beautiful it is. Often you are afraid of your own strength, wisdom, and beauty. You make yourself small in your mind and do not really want to see what is there, but let it appear, and do not be too modest or doubt its potential, because this is the energy for which you have been waiting in your life.
It helps to imagine that energy in the form of a person, so see whether a male or a female figure appears. That can tell you something about what type of energy wants to now flow into you and can help you to open your heart. Look at him or her, and hear what that figure wishes to tell you. Let that figure speak and then anchor into your heart the energy of this person, who is a part of you. Imagine you completely allow this person into your heart space.
Allow a renewal to take place in your life. You cannot accurately predict what will then happen, but trust and surrender to this process. Once you connect with your heart, and the doors are open that have been closed, you will make the connection with your soul and feel your inner guidance. You will then find that anchor, that core within yourself, which you need in order to feel where you now stand and to sense where you are going.
Now connect head, heart, and abdomen with one another. Feel again the carrying power of the Earth and connect with her. You will be surrounded by helping energies in your life and the Earth is one of them. Trust her! She wants to create a path for you, she wants to receive you. You are welcome here, and you are not alone!
Please connect again with that quiet, still center in your head, where you do not think, but simply perceive, alert and present. And finally, connect again with your heart, that very sensitive organ in the center of your being that is the channel for your soul and carries the pain of the past. Have compassion for your heart, for what it has suffered, but also have appreciation for the enormous potential that lies within it: the wealth amassed from many lives, the depth of your emotional life, of your soul. Value your own heart.
Then feel how these three centers work together and become aligned – head, heart, and abdomen – and simply let it happen; you do not have to think about it. Feel how the flow from top to bottom brings you back to your core. But if you feel there is still some resistance or discord, that is okay, because that is why you are doing this. This inward look helps you to become aware of closed parts of yourself and to open doors. Let all be as it naturally is.
Thank you for coming here today. I share my energy with you.
© Pamela Kribbe
Translation by Maria Baes and Frank Tehan