Hello, friends from Era of Light.
I wanted to ask you, and offer the opportunity for us all, to share what inner work we are doing currently, if you want to share.
I happen to have a lot of transits on my natal Mars (astrologically), and I am indeed working on some pent-up anger and frustration. I am releasing bit by bit, the need to be right and to be acknowledged as being right. My ego gets more relaxed as this process unfolds, I don’t feel that I need to defend my identity so strongly, and I feel more at peace as a result. I don’t think the process in nearly finished and I try to be gentle with myself if fall back a bit for a short while.
Would others like to share a bit about their current inner processes ?
Raksha
Most people are not disclosing much. Hmm. Why is that? Maybe practice now. Soon, all will be visable, there will be no “hiding.”
Deeper layers of emotional healing is what’s coming up for me, stemming from a lack of emotional support as a child; and no criticism of my parents for that. Parents who grew up in the great depression rarely had any template, tools or role model for emotional health. It was all about physical survival. The coping mechanisms I developed were to not see or sense any elements of human interaction that made me feel uncomfortable, and to develop strong and supportive emotional bonds with animals and nature. This unconscious shutting down to seeing and sensing masked the psychic abilities I had as a toddler. I’ve been reclaiming my abilities, off and on, for decades. You dig around and heal a layer, then take time to integrate, then eventually, another layer comes to the surface to look at.
Anyone who thinks they are all done, healed, no more work to do is in denial, spiritually gaslighting themselves. The process of healing, growth and expansion never ends, not in any dimension.
Thanks for sharing. I can understand why people may be a bit shy to expose their intimacy on a public forum with strangers, though.
The irony is that the dark forces know us incarnated humans quite intimately to a large degree, and therefore we have no secrets from them. And this goes beyond their usual instruments of control (social media, etc) that most aware people incorrectly believe is the dark forces’ primary source of information.
However, when we publicly share information willingly for others to read and absorb, there are 2 things that happen:
1) We create a space for our energy to manifest in a more prominent way, which may be met with resistance from either our own projections, the projections of human consciousness, or the projections of the dark forces, most often unconsciously channeled through humans (read: attacks).
2) Our expression moves energy along for our own path as well as our role in humanity, which then serves to move things along globally. This creates a space for us to “have an experience”, guided by our higher Self, regardless of whether it’s good or bad.
And for almost all of us, we are here specifically to uplift the vibration of a planet that has been experiencing the lowest vibrations that the Universe has to offer. And in order to do that, we almost always have to go through a myriad of challenges that include the greatest of sufferings in existence!
Fortunately we knew what we were getting ourselves into and are therefore properly prepared for whatever may come, even if we don’t feel or think that we are capable.
My own story goes back several lifetimes (all the way back to Atlantis and Lemuria), where I’ve gotten in touch with most of the root traumas of my own experience, which coincidentally is no different from anyone else’s. Except for me it specifically revolves around the essence of separation in all things and how the prime anomaly manifests itself.
Ranging from the personal experience of being abused for lifetimes, and retaliating without limits to keep the cycle of violence going, to the submission, suffering and sacrifice of humanity as a whole specifically throughout the last 13,000 years.
I personally have not reached a level yet where I can share freely and openly about my own experiences in more detail on an open forum such as this, for reasons that I can’t share either. You can however contact me in private, if you’re curious xD
There will come a time soon when it becomes necessary for all things to be shared openly, in order for our society to put itself back on track. However, some of the courageous ones are leading the way in creating spaces for free and open sharing. You know who you are 😉
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Life is interesting isn’t ? I shared about some layers of anger coming up in my message.
And just the day before yesterday, life just sent me a great catalyst. I think it’s been years since I’ve been this angry. I am a bit reluctant to share such personal stuff, but I was one the one who suggested we share more intimately about our inner processes.
I had dinner at my parents’ place. It was really nice—we laughed a lot and had a great meal. When we were about to leave, my father suddenly said: “By the way, you’re going to have to get vaccinated against whooping cough for your sister’s incoming baby.” I replied, “No, I don’t want to.”
My father shut down immediately—he’s not very talkative—so my mother took over: “Our Swiss doctor told us it’s highly recommended for everyone around the baby.” I repeated, “I’m not going to do it.” Then my father said, “Well, then you won’t see your nephew,” and left without saying another word.
My mother started chattering, lecturing me, saying that thanks to vaccines, many Africans have been saved etc. There was no way to have a discussion—I wasn’t given any space, my arguments and doubts were completely ignored. In the end, I got frustrated by this deadlock and left.
Maybe I didn’t react well, but nothing makes me angrier than when someone who is completely manipulated tries to force me into submission. I find it unfair and extremely frustrating.
I still feel anger—I have a lot of inner work to do (introspection, meditation, observation, acceptance, etc.). I’d like to reach a level of inner peace where I can stand my ground and argue while staying completely calm. But right now, it seems like a layer of anger I wasn’t aware of is surfacing, and there’s no rushing the process.
It really feels like two parallel worlds, two realities, are coexisting in the same space, and the division is growing, making communication increasingly difficult. I feel very sad thinking that I won’t be able to see or hold my nephew for a while. This is the first time that the “Matrix” has hit me so directly.
Thank you for sharing such personal stuff Raksha… from my pov it doesn’t take MUCH to attain that level of peace and pls forgive but by thinking you need introspection, meditation, observation, acceptance, etc.(🥵🥵) “you’re only missing the problem”… I’d even go so far to say “it wouldn’t take more than a sunny afternoon” and you’d be laughing at yourself for not even remembering anymore what your problem WAS❣️
And don’t think I’m being arrogant bc I’m not… just like I wasn’t talking bs when saying my process is finished… 🦍❤️
There may be one summit at the very end of the path, Klaudia. But I believe there are an infinite number of paths leading there. And I understand your point, and I would say that you are right. But there is a path to understand that there never was a path to begin with. If you have reached there, bless you.
“WOW” Raksha, you make me laugh❤️❤️
“Ahhh”… I forgot to say “THANK YOU” silly me🤭
I have made my most progress after studying Advaita Vedanta. I have learned about my True Self and how the ego’s job is to survive by keeping me in a prison of childhood trauma and life’s happenings. I am so much happier now and love the peace and joy of self-love that I have learned to have for myself.
Feeling at times very uncomfortable in my own body and surroundings simultaneously longing for Home. I read somewhere that it’s a test for my resilience in these momentous Times.
Taking time out each day for contact with Nature, which always knows what’s best. ‘Not mine, but they will..’ often comes mind in my quiet times.
It is up and downs constantly for me… More times of balance too. I just try to surrender to this life, to the challenges, to hardships, to abandonments. I work on the contact and we are making progress with the other side, that keeps me going.
Hello
I think I have been meditating for more than two hours a day for the past two years.
I value establishing a foundation for my life, and one of my recent goals is to get a driver’s license.
I had been estranged from my friends, but I recently got in touch with some friends from my school days to fulfill my need to hang out.
I am working on fulfilling my needs, becoming more manly, and meditating.
One of my very important goals is to build a great relationship with a spiritually interested partner.
Love and blessings to you all
The lifelong struggle for existence on this prison planet has been very traumatic; and in the aftermath reappearing during nighttime dreams; which are sometimes so overwhelming that I hesitate falling to sleep…
“MY PROCESS” seems to be done🤝… a little “Ahhh” here&there still connecting “left over dots” and my last dream😝😝😝 “cleaned up” my process’ dirt a few hrs ago… so I expect 🚂”MY FLOW” to pass an interesting “marker” next… thx for asking. 💅
💜K,
Ooohhhh, cool 👏💎💖
Hmm… I wonder if you truly know or can even understand what anger or RAGE even is… yes, I’m 73 years old now and before I was even born my raging NWO Freemason parents were trying to murder me. Our family doctor took me aside when I was 7 and explained to me that my mother was beating herself in the stomach before I was born trying to make me still born [yes my Christian mother who was a department head at a Bible teaching church] and my dad [deacon at the Bible teaching church] pedophfilied me my first 11 years of life [raging at me with curse words till I was 16] even shooting at me with his rifle when I was 7 with mother brainwashing me at 6 to believe that God did not want or love me. No, I am not able to explain or dispose the endless attempts on my life and character by the time I was 12 years old but it did all happen. Then when I was 14 a nurse at the hospital murdered me and the doctor said I was dead for an hour and twenty minutes when I sat up and said, Ha’lo [this was in 1964 before life support] then another time when I was 14, I came upon a man beating another man to death [the man doing the beating was a rogue raging IRS agent]. For making him stop killing the other man [and I did make him stop] I was put on an FBI Terrorist Watch List. Then the long years fighting against organized crime, the endless shootings and beatings [the open contracts out on me since 1973]. Please understand that I am not able to put the hate, anger and rage leveled against me that I have lived with my entire life in print simply because there are no words to explain this level of hate, rage and abuse [all of the times I have been shot, poisoned, beaten and left for dead are endless] which all started with my birth parents who did not want or love me [and never even once held me in their arms]. If it were not for Jesus and His word in my heart and mind, I would most likely be a world renown murderer [or butcher]. Did people die by my hand? Yes, a lot of them BUT those who did die by my hand were shooting at me [and my hands were empty]. In 1977, 13 assassins ran into the store to assassinate me and surrounded me with guns already in their hands and as I stood there with my hands empty, all 13 of them dropped dead at my feet without firing a single bullet. Can you even comprehend even the idea of dropping 13 assassins dead with mere thoughts? Not likely! Recently BIG pharma tried to murder me for exposing natural cures and upsetting their greed machine by getting my heart to defibrillate but my heart did not stop and after 3 and a half hours my heart went back into normal rhythm. If you have anger or rage issues, your ONLY hope is to consume [by reading] God’s written word which is filled with His immortal creative energy and WILL (in fact) empower you beyond physical limitations and against any and all attacks Satan or his minions can bring against you. Yes… I am writing a book about this but I have to go to places in my mind and memory where I was repeatedly butchered and bludgeoned to death to write it so there is and will be no finish date. It will be done when it is done.
……🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻♥️💎…..
Diamond Lil, you are so kind.💎🦋❤️
Ha, John R,
I went on and on about how I pray, because I didn’t want Cliff to think I was strictly new age, praying to alternative beings, when it’s really J&M.
In the end, it was you who was the one most able to convey heartfelt feelings to Cliff, for all of us😌♥️💎
Hi Cliff,
I once visited a penfriend in Maine US, who was butchered by his mother and grandmother. They raped him many, many times from when he was a tiny child. He was left for dead once roughly buried, more times than he can remember. His maternal grandmother died on top of him as he was a small child he was severely punished for this.
What I shared is the tiniest fragment of what he lived through. He introduced me to this site years ago. He may be reading now. We lost touch, but the last time we spoke, he was writing another book. His adopted family treat him well. He lives a quiet life, with his cats, haunted by the past.
Never hesitate to ask for help. Never feel sorry for sharing your darkest moments. Never be afraid to reach out for love, a listening ear, an open heart, a sensitive soul.
John, your reply to Cliff touched my heart. Bless you. And Cliff…I have no words, but send you my heartfelt wishes for peace and healing. You are not alone.
Thank you kindly Lyra. 💜
John R, I’ll second Lyra’s sentiments.
I had no words for Cliff, and pray that daily prayers for all who want to receive christed light, at my request, from J&M, help anyone in need.
I always send an extra special shout out, for those in need of a heaping helping…
But you have words, a knowing, that you were able to communicate 🥹
Cliff isn’t like the rest of us, we only think we have it tough, thank you, John, for being able to verbalize what I’m not capable of verbalizing.
I’m relieved to hear your pen friend, has a stable situation, with the love of his cats, in his daily life.
I hope Cliff knows, that he’s welcome here at era, more than would seem, at first glance.
This is a healing place!
Much Love, John R
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I have been remembering my past lives for the last many years.
Some of it is wonderful, some of it is true horror as I remember the truth of our unknown history both on this Realm and my Home realm.
Mostly I Am in Peace, yet some of the knowledge and memories are hard to witness. Integration, acceptance and release of this becomes most important.
There are no answers outside or yourself.
All your answers, All your truths are within You.
Blessings to Us All
Hi Raksha,
Was it you I was speaking with recently about how the energies affect people?
Are you a mod here? Site Owner?
Anyway, I’m also glad to see this topic.
It’s all about breath & energy work for me.
I could explain it in words but here is a link to the youtube video I would recommend to anyone interested in shifting stuck energy/emotions in your body. I’m sure most here know that stuck, unprocessed energy eventually leads to physical ailments.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=532AV1I6H0w
I would suggest you need to do this for at least a month before its effects are felt.
Cheers.
Hi SteveB,
Are you talking about an article on EoL or elsewhere ?
In any case, I am not a mod or site owner, not here nor elsewhere.
Thanks for the link.
Sorry for the late reply & I doubt you’ll see this.
The author of this very article (at the top) has the same name as you so I wondered if you were a Mod\Owner here.
Cheers
Oh I understand now. This is indeed me. I am not a mod but everyone can contribute if they submit something to Kejraj.
Great discussion topic.
I’m observing and healing whatever comes up — there’s still some stuff I haven’t healed.
I’m meditating, trying to meet my needs, resting sufficiently and occasionally visiting a spiritual healer or meditation group.
Good afternoon!
I am working on really allowing my identity to shine through. Letting go of who I use to be, or who I was trying to be, and being the free spirit I am. I use to use my gift of empathy to feel, who the person I was with wanted me to be, and adjust accordingly. Yuck! I am being authentic me and not the people pleaser. We recently moved states, to a state where we (me and my husband) don’t know anyone, and I’m being as authentic as possible to myself and to find my family. Lot’s of changes and I’m totally here for it!
Joy and blessings all!
Hi. sometimes, moving place is a great opportunity. When I went to live in Japan a few years ago, I felt far freer to try some things with my personnality and interactions.
Freer! Great word. Perfect description for what I am accomplishing. Thanks!😊 Have a blessed day.