KISS MY ASS
Quote from Fanny on 09/18/2026, 8:57 AMI do appreciate KJ reactivating Forum, especially the INFINITE EXPRESSION, where we all can express ourselves infinitely. Although I wont be posting anymore of my paintings on EOL Forum, not because of reasons anyone thought they were. No further explanations needed.
However, I might as well use this very last painting post as a place where I verbalize my random or unrandom thoughts and feelings. Either way... NO NEED TO SCRUTINIZE, ANALYZE, JUDGE, DEBATING,ARGUING, PROJECTING, CRITICIZING ETC. In short.... JUST BE, because each of us doesnt live the life of any other's, undoubtedly with different nations, different cultures, different economic/social/political/education backgrounds etc, to list a few.
Raksha wrote in his comment recently, stating he doesnt know what enlightenment means. I asked myself: Hey narcissistic, self centered, sen qing bing bitch, do YOU know what enlightenment means?
I sat on my balcony eating my freshly baked orange cake ( yes, I bake one again coz it is easy to bake and delicious to eat with a glass of milk, on a balcony), contemplating the question. Obviously the answer is not 369. At least it didnt look like 369 between munching cake and a glass of milk.
What came to mind was a stream of movie where I roamed around SOHO, the central art scene in NYCity back then. It has moved to Chelsea area since then. Havent been to Chelsea, but SoHo during my time there, it was already deteriorating, unlively, flat vibes around, even with posh expensive stores, galleries, cafes, bars, restaurants lined up pactly anywhere one turns. Stores selling quirky artsy items etc, yet.... the atmosphere was dead.
Long ago SoHo I heard was a somewhat a slump neighborhood nobody wanted to live there except.... the artists, musicians, writers, playwrighters etc who were in need of cheap accommodation, and SoHo provided that. Soon it became a lively neighborhood, a unique lively one at that. So the corporates saw the GOLDEN opportunity, in walk they went with piles of money. They walked in, the lively individuals who made SoHo as SoHo walked out. RIP Soho....so to speak.
What that has anything to do with enlightenment? It simply shows me what it is..in a form of metaphor of farting.
Human farts, even a horse needs belly massaged to fart too. I called it normal bodily farting. When bodily fart happens, it gives out unpleasant odors and everyone around run for their lives to get away from the odor. Nonetheless, farting is enlightenment because it enlightens our stomach. Another kind of enlightenment is when our body, our presence are farting too.
Bodily farting drives people away because it stinks. Light farting when released or in many cases simply fart out light automatically, it ATTRACTS people in the surrounding like moth to fire.
Unfortunately tho the moths dont always ones seeking warmth and light, such was the case with SoHo. The situation became so dim, that the fire was repeatedly abused to light corporates-everything, they simply moved out one by one untill no fire left and SoHo RIP.
What is enlightenment? What is and what isnt an enlightenment?
To me.. and I like keeping things simple:
ENLIGHTENMENT IS FARTING. BODILY FARTING AND LIGHT FARTING.
REMEMBER: JUST BE.
I’m a bit sad that you won’t post more of your paintings — but I won’t ask why.
I greatly enjoyed your comment, though. I myself am very much opposed to tyrannical positivity: the whole “always be love and light and poetry” thing.
It reminds me of an anecdote. I was once at a friend’s place for some kind of party with a lot of tantric and New Age people. I got caught in a circle where everyone had to hold hands, introduce themselves, and say one word they wished for the weekend.
“Abundance.”
“Light.”
“Colors.”
“Friendship.”
“Light.”
“Love.”
And when my turn came, I said:
“Dick in the ass.”
I’m not especially vulgar or hardcore, but in that moment I felt the need to restore the balance a little — a bit like your example about “farting.”
Some people reproached me for it. Others came to thank me privately afterward.
Your sadness noted and thank you for not asking why. My reasoning often not everyone's cup of tea. To keep EOL world peace, wiser to keep it for myself.
"Dick in the ass."....hahaha that was funny! Many must have been in shock to hear that.
I had a friend who was older than me, his knowledge of everything is remarkable and he knows how to use it to impress others. I often disrupted his display of knowledge by asking him with something silly question out of the air : " Jim, where did I last keep my hair clips? ". He stopped in mid-sentence, then went on answering me without blinking: " In your ass." 😂 Another times I would ask him my other missing 'items', he would come up with many outrageous answers too.
In truth, we are already enlightened; enlightenment is our natural (fundamental) state it’s just that along the way we’ve accumulated all this grime of life in this low density, and now we have to get rid of all that grime.
Our natural state is always with us and shines through all this grime and debris, but we focus on these impurities most of the time.
Instead, let’s focus our attention on that natural state from which everything arises; every thought, every emotion.
Fanny, why are you so hard on yourself? You’re not the way you describe yourself, that’s just your human form (your vehicle for this life) 😀
You know you’re a wonderful manifestation of the Source,don’t be so hard on yourself.
Now more than ever, we need love and self-care to weather this whole storm.
I won’t write too much right now because my human has a messed up hand 😀
I wish you all a wonderful weekend!
I really prefer your way to articulate what enlightenment is, Wujas... way way better than my crude "farting" metaphor 😁
And yes, you are correct, I am not the way I describe myself here. Even as just my human form, I am a confident, independent, determined, and kind-hearted (to a flaw) person. The description of myself here are what the others around me usually portray me as. However, I learnt to protect my boundaries along the way. My kind-heartedness (to a flaw) doesnt mean I had to give everytime someone asked or demanded to be exact.There are 2 main misconceptions by others about me, that I seemed to be kind-hearted that I am obliged to give. The other one is that I am wealthy. That were so not true, because either being kind or wealthy, they have everything to do with my being aware and connected as best I could to Source, as I am indeed the wonderful manifestation of Source. But... do others recognize, honor and respect that when they cant even notice that in their own beingness? So yes... I learn to protect my boundaries.
I admit I am very very stressed and tensed. After a lifelong daily struggle protecting my boundaries, I am amazed and grateful I am still standing today 😂. Honestly, even simply making a small move or a small step these days, it feels like climbing the highest mountain. Last couple of months, it grew so intense that the pressure from on top of my head bursted into my upper jaw, breaking both my top back teeth. I know I need a huge major self care, not easy as it sounds. Average temperature in the tropics is 32-34°C... to many average person. To me it feels 40-42° EVERYDAY. It is not coincidence either that when I needed a long quiet rest, suddenly all 3 groups of workers started working on the same day for a week now. One group is government workers cleaning up river in front of my house. When they reached my house 3 days ago, they showed up to work but not working, actually.... really and honestly, they even laid out a rollup matress and napping all day right infront across of my house, accumulating garbages which they did not bother to throw in garbage bin. Another worker group working inside my house, my water pipe started to leak at the same precised time. Oh.. the last worker group, my neighbour on the right, also decided their house needed repairment. Quieter at night? Not really. Someone decided to lock out their dog outdoor to bark and crying to be let in all night.
Sorry I dont need to type all these trivia mundane struggles of my daily life, but I want you to know that I truly appreciate your reminding that I am a wonderful manifestation of Source. Thank you ❤️
Have a wonderful weekend too, Wujas and Raksha and everyone else reading this 🫠
Very humid day today at this side of my pond. The workers cleaning up the river are still on picnic schedule for the 5th day right in front of my home, accumulating even more garbages. It is not a coincident, dont bother to reprimand, only laughing to myself. You cant make it up, going to work carrying along rollup matress. Saving my energy doing what needs to be done :
* essembling meat grinder, dynamo motor to metal frame. I want to make real sausages with hog intestine casing. No collagen casing whatever that thing is.
*sanding 2 sections of walls to be painted to serve as my make do kitchen and a small dining area.
I am much better working with fabrics, wood, or metal, not so with anything electronic. More often than not I got electrocuted in the process. I cant afford hiring workers, so I have to use my common sense to essemble it piece by piece myself. Somehow I will get it right eventually🤭
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Last night I talked to universe about workers took 4 weeks to clean up a mere 100 metres long river, parked and picnic in front of my house for the past 6 days, accumulating garbages from their breakfast and lunch which they did not bother to clean up into garbage bin. I asked universe to educate, upgrading my understanding with whats going on with these workers' behaviours? They clean up the river, then garbage around in front of my home? Am I missing something?
Early dawn this morning, I was guided to sweep the garbages they accumulated, collected them and placed them on the spot where they picnic and nap on their rollup mattress.
Six continuous days, dear universe... I wish them well, and be removed from my reality where they can fit comfortably well with their energy signatures elsewhere.
The first worker arrived, he saw their pile of garbages on their napping spot, he bent down picking them up and put them in the garbage bin. I wasnt waiting for them to see their reaction, yet I was given the privilege to witness it when I happened to walk by my window. I sensed the worker's energy, he was okay. I went to sleep, when I woke up all 10 workers gone, along with their 2 excavator vehicles, without trace.
All is clean, not a single garbage left behind. I thanked the universe 🙏
I just had a strange idea: why don’t we make an open invitation for people to share something creative?
For instance, we could pick a very simple theme — say, an egg — and invite everyone to create or share something around it. It could be a painting, a drawing, a quote, a joke, a song, a poem, a photo… whatever comes to mind.
It would probably need a post on the main website to get any visibility, and maybe only a few people would participate. But still, it sounds fun, doesn’t it?
It can be fun but I dont think many, if not any...would participate.
About sending out invitations, I dont think it is a matter of visibility, because KJ had already done that for us when he announced he had reactivated Forum. People read it, knew about it, even came over to have a look (based on views count), still... if they really wanted a community to engage with and not just talked about it, they would have done so by now... by their own choice/theme and willingness to share.
Now, Raksha, I say we let people to share or not to share.... freely.
Feeling a bit overwhelmed today. With the workers still repairing the entire house's water pipes, dust and debris everywhere, making it impossible to start stuffing sausages.
Then theres the issues with heat, mosquitoes, ants, fatigue, sleeping but feel like awake, then when awake actually falling asleep sleeping sitting on chair 🥴
Screen shopping online, accidentally found acrylic paints sold by the kilos, 50cents/kg. My mood improved instantly! Acrylic paints to me is just as it is... acrylic paints. But 50 cents/kg, I can use it to play around or actual painting on gessoed paper, 1 kg is a lot. Also, I need to paint the wall for my make-do kitchen and dining space. Ooo..so many colors, so little money 😂(nothing new about this 🙄).
If it is my own wall in my own home, it will be deep orangey yellow or deep navy for dining space. But since it is neither my own wall nor my own home, it will be either hazel or terracotta.
Most probability: Hazel.
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